But I didn't expect to be making so many of these goodbyes this September, when I had to turn, walk home, and be sat in an empty house for hours on end.
As you're all aware by now, a 'school administrative error', as I am now calling it, purely so I don't continue to get really wound up, caused my university place to blow away aimlessly in the wind to some other poor sod waiting to sort his life out. Letters should have been sent in March, as opposed to handed to me to send on Results Day - ending up in a complete and utter debacle where my place disappeared into thin air. I wouldn't mind so much if it was my fault, or the university's fault. But the fact it was the schools' fault, and it was the simplest thing to sort, makes it all the worse. But hey ho.
Thankfully, there are a fair few of us affected by school-related issues, and therefore we're staying behind - whether it be to re-sit the entire year, re-sit specific subjects, or hold out for an unconditional offer next year, knowing you've got the grades.
But that doesn't make it any easier. Oh no - far from it. Watching your friends disperse across the country, enjoying themselves this week in what is Fresher's Week, whilst I sit watching lunchtime re-runs of Celebrity MasterChef as I've already done all my jobs for the day.
It does beg the question: why don't people have some consideration? I know that if I was in their position, knowing that my best friends were left lagging behind, I'd keep stumn, keep my excitement from them, and keep it off the web. There's no humility - there's a level of arrogance that people are crossing every now and then, which just makes you feel awful. And it's not just me either. Having spoken to friends up and down the land, they're feeling the anguish too.
I don't mind the evenings, as they're what they always have been. But I hate the days - the long, drawn-out days that continue to get longer. With nothing to fill them but two hours of lessons every Friday morning, and the lack of jobs available to those in need of filling time, there is a distinct emptiness that continues to grow and grow, alongside this incessant loneliness of a silent house, and a lack of contact from anyone.
There's only so many Tweets you can send, emails you can check, and songs you can listen to before the echoing silence becomes deafening. And I'm only 48 hours into my 12 month stint at this.
I know a lot of people have been in this position previously, and are now in high-paid, enjoyable jobs, and have great lives. They say the 'Lonely Year', as we've called it, made them who they are today. I also know that I have close friends that have stayed back, because they're in the same position. But without seeing them, or being able to have a proper conversation with them, because our lives are now placing us elsewhere, it becomes more and more difficult.
So I hope you all enjoy your first year at university, and all enjoy the fun nights out and the new friends and experiences you will inevitable make and enjoy. But please - for the sake of people like myself stuck in this void year, stop making it worse for us by posting your fun across your social networking platforms?
The long road to the end goal has only just begun. Prepare yourselves for plenty more of posts like this...
Taken from General Musings of an Idiot: http://www.gmoai.com
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